Saturday, August 30, 2008
Nothing is smooth for me.
1am walking on the street & burst out my tears.
You know how much I cared about you.
You know how much I loved you.
But the thing you did tonight breaks my heart totally.
I dont put the blame on you but myself.
Because we've been together for so long, the excitement is no longer there.
We meet up almost everyday. Now even weekend we meet up you'll feel bored.
You know my everythings & I know your everythings. But the topic between both of us is endless.
Though the promise we made previously is broke. But like what I said to you on the phone, you can go pub.
But must be with me. I can ensure your safety your everythings. But when you're with others?
I dont know what happened every min every sec.
The only worried in my heart is you. You know yourself very well.
You know you get influence easily. Get cheated easily.
I'll always take myself as a 'security guard' when I'm with you. I want you to be safe and sound.
No one can ever take your advantage. No one can get a single tiny chance to cheat you.
Because I know I'll never let that person off.
I admit I get jealous frequently. Your friendster, your blog, including all the friends around you.
I treat you more than a normal girlfriend.
I want to be the best in all your circles of friends.
I want to hear you say you need me.
I want to hear you say you miss me.
You got short term memory I understand. But not for me.
I'll remembered the first time you said you missed me was last year November.
Everythings related to you were all remembered clearly in my mind.
In the same way, you was there whenever I'm down.
The word whenever I totally mean it. At any point of time in any emotions I'm give her a call when she's not with me.
She'll be there laughing with me, cheering me up, calm me down, giving me advise.
No matter what happens, you would also go through everythings with me.
Although when I'm in a foul mood you couldn't make me smile, but your presents always make me feel so much better.
I wasn't angry with you. I'm just filled with disappointment & sadness.
You are just like a worm in my stomach. You always know what's in my mind.
You also know how much I love you, Queeny.
Obviously the msg above is specially delicated to Queeny Koo.
Every friend of mine get different type of love from me.
Dont tag me and say I delicate msg to who and who but not you.
Its just that the relationship between Queeny & me is 6 years. With contact almost everyday.
Meeting up almost everyday. Of course the love with her will be deeper than anyone else.
But I still love my beloved friends that is around me now.
Dont say dont love my dear friends okay. ILOVEYOU (:
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You are going ns in 2 weeks time. But our meeting day is getting lesser and lesser.
The number of msg/call we have is also getting lesser and lesser.
The only thing I can get to know abt you is friendster.
But nevertheless, it breaks my heart again and again.
No matter how many times I tell you what I dont want to see, its still happening.
No more sorry from you. No more sigh from you. I want explanation from you.
I want to hear you telling me why are you doing this.
You're still not satisfied that you got me? Sigh.
Date:31st of Aug
Time:3.25am
Mood:Sad link | posted by *♥Baobao♥* at 11:17 PM
