Friday, September 04, 2009
Specially for you.
Dawn was breaking in the soft morning. Tears ran down my cheek until my pillow was soaked..
Its just another boy, another love, another lie and another happy ending.
What I really want? Am I ready for love? Or its just people who dont understand us yet still trying to make a judgement?
I make you felt the same way too. Such a failure girlfriend..
I do fucked up things. I make you think that I dont take this relationship seriously.
And my age causes problems too.
Yes I do want to put in effort badly. I want to do things that make you happy.
I want to make you feel better whenever you're feeling low.
But I felt so helpless. Because I dont know what to do.. I dont know what to do to make you smile.
Sigh. I did tried. Few attempt make me feel that I'm just doing childish things.
Which didnt manage to make you notice what I'm doing.
Haa. I really sound damn stupid now.
I dont want to name out what I did. Because I know I'll make myself look and sound more stupid.
But.. Its all the small thing. The small lil thing makes me remember you. Reminding myself that you have the top priority.
I did tried my best.. I really do. Just because we got different views, different type of lifestyle, different type of friends.
These are not enough to make me break down yet. More to come perhaps.
I will always have this belief in my heart. If only we're able to overcome all these together, we'll be even happier.
Isn't that what you're thinking too? After countless of argument we had, I think there's more to come.
We still gonna argue, gonna fight, gonna cry, gonna have the feeling of heart sunk..
Thats love. Love filled with all the emotions that normally it doesnt come out from you.
Though our relationship is a lil more tough compared to other ppl's one.
Think abt the aftermath of our fights and arguments. Ppl will envy us..
I'm not dreaming. I'm going to US with you after you ORD from your NS.
I wanna stay with you. I wanna wake you up just by turning around.
I wanna pull you to the toilet in order to make sure you're fully awake.
I wanna watch tv with you in the living room while eating our delivery mac.
I wanna look at your charming face in the dark only.
I wanna be your bolster for life..
If only we can overcome everything together. I need your understanding & you need my understanding.
Everyday, I'll try my best to improve myself. To be better than yesterday.
I promised I will work hard in this relationship. I wont give up no matter what.
Maybe till the day when I break down.. No matter how much I wish to give up, I thought of our happy moment.
I think everything is worth it. Worth my tears, worth putting more effort.. and worth your smile.
Just to see you smile widely, I smiled.
The disgusting yet sweet thing that you did,times when you trying to act sweet yet ended up doing stupid thing.
You make me smile :)
